My YouTube channel and vlogging my new journey

Some of you may have visited my YouTube channel in the past, or seen embedded videos here on my blog, but I’m not sure I’ve ever formally introduced it.  So without further ado…here’s the link:

I’m also starting a new(er) path on my journey to overcome my OCD, anxiety, and depression.  I’ve written about these things before, but decided that I wanted to add another dimension to the journey, and to this blog.  Today I recorded a video introducing this journey on my YouTube channel.  My goal is to be able to use this blog and the channel to better tell my story, which I hope will enrich “the journey” for you, the reader, and for me as well.

I hope you will take a few minutes to check out the video and let me know your thoughts.  As always, thanks for stopping by!

EMDR – My Journey (Part 3) – An Anxiety High

I’m officially suspending the EMDR “My Journey” series indefinitely. Mainly due to the fact that I’m not sure it’s fair to say how much of my therapy now is EMDR and how much are offshoots of the modality. All I know is that my anxiety has officially taken up residence, on my chest. Before, it was stopping by too frequently but would at least go home and provide me with some down time. Now it has moved in to the upper regions of my chest. It also feels like its bed is a gigantic hammock, mounted to each side of my collarbones; each time it plops down it draws my chest together, tighter and tighter.

I’m also waking up each morning to near panic attack levels of anxiety. I’m having the strangest dreams, which I know are absolutely illogical in context, but they are creating such havoc on my anxiety. For example, I was awoken this morning by a dream where I had gotten all reared up because I couldn’t find the right brand of cigarettes at a truck stop I somehow arrived at. Never mind the fact that I don’t smoke, but I had to keep looking for them because the truck stop was closing and we’d all be locked in for hours if I couldn’t check out in time. I was also buying dog food but apparently had no issues finding it.   I’m not big into every dream “means” something or there’s a hidden message like…I should start smoking 🙂 .  I fall into the camp that dreams are more of a brain discharge, nudged along in some cases by thoughts, experiences, etc. The problem is that anxiety disorders are not logical. Anxiety doesn’t care that I don’t smoke or that truck stops are designed to never close. Anxiety says, “Man, that sucks about your cigs. You should FEEL really nervous and scared about that. Oh, by the way, let me wake you up so you can FEEL it in reality as well.” Bastard anxiety. I know it’s an evolutionary protection mechanism that has kept humans alive for thousands of years, but I just wish somewhere along the way we’d had a switch built in, or at least something like a light dimmer where we could have it calm down a bit. Gee, thanks Natural Selection for conferring with me first…you’re so selfish sometimes. At least the anxiety hasn’t completely dulled out my ability to be a smart-ass!

Update: Sharing Thanksgiving with a four-legged friend

Update on Chase, our visitor for Thanksgiving:

Chase has a Forever Home!

Chase, the 14 year old dachshund that stayed with us over the Thanksgiving Holiday has now found a forever home.  Big thanks to Rea Road Animal Hospital for the care they provided and Chapman’s Dachshund Rescue  for finding Chase a home.  I also want to thank my wife whose huge heart brought Chase into our lives and for her work in helping to connect the organizations above which made this possible.  Big Kudos all around!

Congratulations Chase!

Check out our Thanksgiving visitor on the blog’s YouTube page:

Source: Sharing Thanksgiving with a four-legged friend

My First Meme

After years of enjoying countless memes on social media, I decided that I wanted to take the plunge and make one of my own.  It was very easy to make and I used imgur as the tool (it’s web based and has an app).  So, for my first meme, I put a Mark spin on it…funny, political, with a nice hint of smart-ass truthfulness.  🙂  Hope you enjoy!

Honest Abe, Now Embarrassed - Imgur

Old Restaurant Menus from The New York Public Library

The New York Public Library recently released digitized versions of many old documents that they had on file.  They had an entire category for “Menus” which I found enjoyable to look through.  I made a short video containing some of the ones that I found interesting.  Hope you enjoy viewing.

Also, don’t forget to head over and look at the other fascinating documents that they released…many that are now in the public domain.